The End of Another Beginning....

Well, this is the last post of this year for me. Here's some stuffs that I will like to share for this year....

1. I was ranked as a the Top SSG but I think I've not done enough to warrant that.
2. RnI was disband.... Along with my morale.
3. I scored straight A's except for 1 subject.... That's pretty sore to me.
4. Got a military Class 4 but can't drive becourse I still need to be " Fam ".
5. Wanted a marksman real bad... But I'm a bloody cockeye... Where's my ' Aimbot ' when I needed it most.
6. Somehow I've got a god-sister who VJ thinks I'm havin' an affair with... That piece of indian carp!!
7. Realised that some people thinks that I'm malay ( "wat the ...." )... Not talking about Kevin Tan here though.
8. I am lost and lonely without my wife.... But she don't think so...
9. Thinks that my bike is still not powerful enough.... Class 2 on the way, in six months time... Damn!!
10. Don't know what the hell is happening in the company, feels frustrated.
11. I'm still the stand-in CSM... But actually, I love the job ( my mouth juz wouldn't admit it ). Can connect with people. And solve wierd problems that deals with people.
12. Shane did not know that I'm married. Quote from Vek " how could he not know? " Who knows?
13. My left knee is going.... Yet I still volunteer for Cobra Challenge. I didn't want Xiao Chin to feel alone in this, that's why.
14. The only challenge I felt that I have during work is to irritate the hell out of VJ. The rest is routine.
15. Yes.I don't feel that there is a challenge in my job anymore. Could be connected to point No. 2.
16. I go to work feeling cold phsically and mentally.
17. Love my people at RnI, no matter how they are.
18. The men will never care for you or your work until they realise that you care for them.
19. Went through the AHM this year, AT LAST!!!
20. Still got a silver this year. Getting old. Tsk.Tsk.
21. I'm 30 this year. So?
22. For once, I felt helpless when I see the current " RnI " struggling in their own way. Wish I can do more.
23. Did something that I swore I should never do.... Trying to correct a man's character faults. Badly hurt the other time.
24. I'm not perfect.
25. Changed my style of work and I love it.
26. Still playing soccer when I thought my soccer days are over... It is kind of over. I can't play the same way I play again... My knee....
27. Did not play basketball for 1 whole year. Wah Lau.
28. VJ, Jon & Joel will forever be the best soldier in my heart.
29.Xiong Xiong and Sebas will forever be the best clerks in my heart.
30. And for all those guys that I've worked with, I appreciate all ya guys and respect all of you as real people.

Too Much...

Had coffee with 3 guys from my company. Talked about work, camp and oh... the roller-skate girl......( as usual.. I mean don't you have enough in camp?... Anyway, we didn't share personal stuffs too much... so... it's still camp..... ) Down 2 cups of latte..... Went home feeling the caffeine effects... Did I spell "caffeine" correctly? What a day... I thought I told him too much ..... Too much for him to handle? Too cutting, maybe? Well, that's life... The truth hurts but wonder if that's the truth..... Everyone has their ideas and ideals but that does not mean that you can force it down their throats and even if you feel superior than the other guy, it simply means that you have to be more humble.. Long way to go friend.... Mine's juz started .... but you juz began.... What the f@#k am I writing?

The Pride

I've been questioned by people... why am I still hanging around RnI when I should be somewhere else, why do I persist on helping out with them? I have no answer, only the RnI people can tell you how we feel. By our standards, we are the best. The best that the company can produce for this nature of work, not about the technical skills but the extreme positive, strong and diligent mental attitude that differentiate us from a normal piece of rock to a high grade diamond. Yes, the ability to lead, make decisons and move. The ones that stands right at the war front. That's RnI, those who were there will be proud. Simply, only the best will have the honour to even participate in this path. That is the tradition that I wanted to exist in them. Even after the section is dissolved. I want them to carry this mentality of excellence in to the other sections, into the society. Seeing the new generation of people struggling in they own way kinda affects me and makes me feel like staying around to help out in whatever I can. But I know deep down inside that it's only time. I will have to leave them to the new time, the new generation where I am only a transaction...............

Ok, I know alot of ya guys out there have seen this pic. But it's still my all time fav, couldn't resist sharing wif ya guys. 

Detached

The pain is excruciating, blood dripping & flooding on the floor. A man lying on the ground. His heart torn out. But wait, it's only a small piece. Only that small piece in his hand. Detached. His heart looks normal, but not. Just because of that small little piece. He is crying painfully, imploring, wanting it back but at the same time, not wanting it. Why? Why? There is another in the room, his shadow. His other being, grinning, scorning & snickering. The choice is yours. Choose! You choose your life, whether you forsake that small piece of self or you keep it. In this dark and lonely generation, choose the value that you crave or have integrity in character. Does it exists in first place? Only that small piece of your heart you hold in your hands know. Examine it.