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I went to see Jeremy today. I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do. I can only remember calling up VJ to say that I ban him from dragon boat. I can only remember myself going through all the blogs of my men to make sure that they are still fine.... What the hell am I doing?

Excessive

I feel an excessive need to write today. I don't know why. Too much happened lately and I was really unable to get it out of my system. Somehow, everytime when things happened, be it good or bad, I'll always remember the men that I led. I will always remember Ling Jia Hao who is always rocking in RnI with his fav Gospel songs with me banging our heads together screaming early in the morning at 0710hrs. I remember Elton doing the sacastic shit against wierd people who bothered us with useless questions. I remember Jasmine screwing the other guy for the lack of interest in their personal work. I remember Lee Kok Seng looking stressed infront of his computer, cos he needs to submit his reports on time. I remember Long Ge confidently telling me, " All you need is to sign this document, I'll make sure the rest is done up swee swee. " And he never screw me up once, never. I remembered Kelvin Lam doing his best to do his RnI job. I remember JunHui kanna gang banged..... against the sharp corner of the table. I remember Wild Boar looking motivated when I told him that he will have off-days. You should have seen his face man.... I remember Chitra looking so focused on her paperwork. I remembered Joel telling VJ that he's an ass. I remembered VJ screwing incompetent people. I remembered Jonathan so consistently making sure that the office is cleaned and tidy up. And still will be messed up by us.... He never gave up anyways. I remember Sebas working so hard that I have to scold him to make him go home early. But he never anyways.... I remember the passion these people have and how times have passed... It's the passion of these people that have kept me going on and on and on and on. They are the ones that really got me going when things are tough and difficult nowadays. Thanks guys!!

Guess what, I smiled.

Sometimes, it's really good to act stupid or maybe, the right word is blur. Life sometimes is over-complicated with lotsa noise and distorted messages that go through the air. I seek to be a simple person, but someone else will come and complicate the hell out of it. Something happened today. It's the usual workplace politics again. It's someone who think that I was unworthy to replace his position. Somehow, I laughed and say to myself," Why don't he think that I was doing him a favour?" To be trueful about it, I thought was selected to go there and clear his shit... Talk about toilet bowl mentality. He went on further to throw poison daggers at me to everyone that comes his way. And I'm sure everyone can see my back full of daggers sticking out and my face blue-black from the poisoning. I laughed. It's not that I don't know, but sad to say, I knew that he was doing that to me since 1999. I smile. I never said anything 'bout him for the past 5 years. And it will be the same for the rest of my life. Why? Cos' I choose a simple life.

See, there are some out there....

The "Find of the Season", that's what was racing through my brain. I thought there's no leader in SA. To my total shock, I was dead wrong. But am I glad I was wrong. I found someone that is capable of getting things straighten out for SA and although there might be some limits to his area of responsibilities but I am very sure, given the right position and support, we can groom him to one of Armt better leaders. Someone capable like Sivakumar, Vj, Jonathan, Joel and much more. I started off today straight away, giving him authority for something and it was up to my expectation that things are done. Of course, it is only something for him to start of with others to acknownledge his presence and the the rest will follow... Beginning of great things!!!

Summary 2005

Summary 2005

Well, guess this come a little late, but better than never....

People came and left, and yes, it's stilll the old guy ( me ) around looking at the new faces. From HA and SA. It is to me, a complete turnover and and literally unknown. I set myself out to know them better and is pleasantly surprise with their friendly response to me. I was glad. Ok, I'll be summing up my thoughts or events that I think matters to me. ( As usual )

1. I sold my bike and got a red Vios. But I still love bikes and still insist that my end state will still be a class 2 bike. A BMW GS1200.
2. Handed over my CSM appointment.
3. Got a new flat in Seng Kang.
4. After Boss left to become S3, some people starts to get to me. Some complain that I am his blue eye boy, that's why I'm ranked first again. Friends in high places?
5. I don't know why I got myself involved in Army Pride Day again... And this time, there's no VJ to take the shit.
6. I took part in the Army Sym. And I met the role model I want to emulate. SWO Francis Ng. Army RSM.
7. I am now a Master Trainer for a Section. I'm excited to see Senthil grow as a Leader in this phase.
8. Single handedly organized the OC COC Parade. With LTA Allan, of course.
9. Almost single handedly working for OHSAS 18000 Certification for my own company.
10. Almost single handedly working for ISO 14000 Certification for my own company.
11. At the same time, there's this MOB Manning!!
12. At the same time, there's this Army Pride Day.
13. The CO Change of Comand Parade has to fall on my birthday.... Tsk Tsk.
14. I realised that people that refuses to accept the CSM appointment when given the chance are actually questioning my abilities.... If so, why don't they do it?
15. Asked for post out and was "politely" refused by CO.....
16. Realized that I need to re-define my own working life.
17. Had to go and answer questions which I have no answers, but somehow got them answered. I call this Extreme Smoke Over....
18. I am stilll the same, I still love my people.
19. I missed Sebas.
20. I made it for MSR.

2006?

Well, it’s 2006. What to say? Last year’s a busy but really slowing down in December and not really picking up pace… Not as much as I liked. I want to shift up my gear. I wanna move. I wanna climb. It’s not me to sit back and relax and assume that someone else’s gonna get the work done. Nope, no way is anyone gonna come forward and do things unless necessary. Then, why do I want to come out and do things? Because them, I am not.

P.S.

Promotion… Someone got promoted and they are not happy… I’m not really concern. It’s not my problem. Position does not spell quality. Not an issue.

Missin'

Have not been blogging for some time now. Thought I should update some of my thoughts now.....

Handed over my appointment to someone I really thought is the better person to do this job. There wasn't really any bad feelings about the whole thing to me as it was an organisational requirement. All I want to do now is to take a break and hopefully get myself posted out... He he he...

Sorry to Jonathan... Could not attend his birthday... cos my elder brother's an ass....

Soldier

> FINAL INSPECTION>>>>
The Soldier stood and faced God
Which must always come to pass
He hoped his shoes were shining
Just as bright as his brass.

"Step forward you Soldier,
How shall I deal with you?
Have you always turned the other cheek?
To My Church have you been true?"

The Solider squared his shoulders and said
"No, Lord, I guess I ain't
Because those of us who carry guns
Can't always be a saint.

I've had to work on Sundays
And at times my talk was tough,
And sometimes I've been violent,
Because the world is awfully rough.

But, I never took a penny
That wasn't mine to keep.
Though I worked a lot of overtime
When the bills got just too steep,

And I never passed a cry for help
Though at times I shook with fear,

And sometimes, God forgive me,
I've wept unmanly tears.

I know I don't deserve a place
Among the people here.
They never wanted me around
Except to calm their fears.

If you've a place for me here,
Lord, It needn't be so grand,
I never expected or had too much,
But if you don't, I'll understand."

There was silence all around the throne
Where the saints had often trod
As the Soldier waited quietly,
For the judgement of his God.

"Step forward now, you Soldier,
You've borne your burden well.
Walk peacefully on Heaven's streets,
You've done your time in Hell."

See her baby? 

Wat was I thinkin'........ 

Our Greatest Fear

Nelson Mandela, 1994 Inaugural Speech


Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,

but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,

gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking

so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.

It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine,

we consciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our fear,

our presence automatically liberates others.

A view from Watsons Bay 

Wat ya lokin" at Mike? 

Sydney Bridge