Hey

I'm back writing this... Some might be rubbing their hands in glee to read this. And why not. Things have changed significantly since the last 2 months as a CSM. I've truly, and confirmed that I am capable of evil. The sight of me shouting and making people do push ups and sit ups was probaly common back in those older days as a stand-in CSM, but this will be worse. I'm not truly a sadist, I don't enjoy these. But it's a job. It has to be this way for now until some people learn that it was just their own selfish act that has gotten the rest of the company, their fellow colleages into trouble. It's about time for people to realise that it is the company that is been punished. Each and everyone has a role to play. Bottomline. Guys that know will understand that. Maybe some will think that it's because that I am stressed, that's why I take it out on people. Think what you think, I'm not interested. If you have wisdom, you should have picked up the early warning signs that I tried to give out. I have given at least 1 month of grace and nice talking and it was ignored. Yes, it's probaly my fault that I was too friendly and nice earlier, but now it's too late. I have to let people know that I meant business and there is no room for discussion. No more.... I told someone in my office that day, I'm here to train men and to make they stronger as a person when they ORD and not to let them develop 2 years of bad habits and be a liability to the civilian world when they carry on the bad things that I need to rectify now. I don't want to live with regrets. I'm not running for a popularity contest.