Sleepless Liar

Sometimes I hate myself,
I suppressed alot not to hate myself,
Cos' I does the things that I will not lose myself,
Cos' I fear that I will loose mself,
I don't want to hurt the feelings,
That I hold dearly to myself,
But I can't control the over-flowing flood myself,
If I can't be myself, then I rather kill myself,
There are more words then these to descripe my emotions now,
But I can't say anymore.......