Are you kidding me?

I reached home today with a wierd feeling... Not 'bout the test I took juz now in school but I think I've carried home some heavy feelings 'bout work... I guess. As much as I wanted to live in the grace of God, it seems to get even further from me. Like trying to grap hold of sand in my hands, slipping away.... You know that's life..

The Tale of Two Cities

Sounds like some novel that I've read for my literature class... Do they still study that in school... I can only wonder.. But in a irony sense... It seems to be happening to RNI. So different, but the same, so far apart, but so close... I sometimes feel so helpless by my limitations to assist them guys in the HA side, I can only offer to to block all the shoots taken at them... Lots been spoken but I wanted to see if those that spoke will be truth to their word... I will definitely wanted to see. I also believe in the human aspect of everything and not some damn system setup by human to better things when it is the human that is running that system to better things.... so if the human messes up the system he sets up to better the human.... where does it lead us? And what most frustrates me is this... People will take any chance get you when you are down... No matter what you do whether right or wrong... Even when they are in the same company... Don't thet think that it is stupid? Like the python swallowing it's own tail... It when eat up themselves. So eat this, I am not concern by their remarks or their senseless bad mouthing. I am only concern that I please God with what I do and my response is to even try to better ourselves. I ain't gonna let my guys down so easily. Changes have been made, systems will change, people come and go... But there is still a job to be done and there are still a bunch of clowns in my office to be loved and be well taken care of by me.

Jon & Joe

These two lighten up my day .. Seeing them in the office makes me feel comfortable, I don't know how... But it pleases me to realised that they are there.. Love you guys.

The Bonding

Was talking to Jaz 'bout the bonding we've have with the older bunch.. KS, Elton ( I love ya messed up attitude ), Long-ge, Jia Hao... I realised that I've grow attached to them including Jaz who will be leaving me to R2. Makes me sad that somehow or other when I realised that it will be the same for Jon, Joe, Kev,Joesph, Chitra. This is something that I've never gotten used to ths 11 years... People leaving.. But that's life and I can only make the best of it when they are around and really to treasure the friendship we have.

ME

You realised that I don't complain much 'bout life. 'Cos I've been saved by Christ. He died on the cross for me and I've been washed clean by Jesus. I live by grace and not by works. I want to love like Jesus has done and still doing. But I am not perfect, I still fail... God forgive me..